what have you done for love?

Fire_eclipse wrote:

Cham and boingo Personal thanks to you two for getting me through the last rough time of my life. I appreciated it. So it looks like I found my one and only now it's just a matter of time.

Hey, like Cham said we were only too happy to help. And you are a good guy. You're such an easy laugher....almost too easy.

I love it! I'm so happy you found your honeypoo. I knew you would. Be sure to keep all of us updated....or at least me because I'm very nosy.

B_B

W00t... Love stories. Well, I don't really have stories about love working out, but I have felt the feeling of love.

From beginning to end?

Start of my 3rd year in high school (this is my 5th, and final, year. I have not failed once) I let myself start to fall in love with someone. (Yes, I let myself. My mind is psychotic, I have to directly influence it to do anything.) For several months, I tried to work up the courage to tell this to her. I can NOT speak to girls, unless it's about schoolwork. Typing isn't a problem. I have tried every trick possible to get past this and nothing works. Anyway, I slowly work through this as best I can, getting closer and closer to her all the while, and eventually, at a school outting, two things happened: One, she sat on my lap for a few seconds (and I was blushing like the blooming sun) and later one, I got to wrap my arm around her while sitting on a couch. W00t. Of course, I was commenting on something at the time, and I believe that I may have screwed up the relationship at that time. So anyway, she seems to distance herself after that, and again I try and work closer and closer to her again. However, she now gets a "boyfriend" (or whatever. I'm not sure what their relationship was.) Which makes me insanely jealous, something that I don't dare let influence me (I was friends with the boyfriend's older brother, we were in a small band for a while... That was unrelated) although I certainly felt it. In order to properly cope with the ineffect my efforts were having, I forced my heart to forget her. I used this in conjunction with someone on the internet's help and fell in "love" with this girl on the internet. Of course, she was supposed to be in love with another guy (who eerily had the same name as me.) He had been more faithful to her, so again I forced my heart to forget her. We had been friends and such, and played some games together, but he had stood by through several broken relationships, and I figured he deserved her more than I did. After I officially broke up with her, I soon found out that, oh, she had broken things off with her old boyfriend and was only with me now. Which was too late, since I had already done all the psychologic things I needed to do. Anyway, after that I fell in love with another girl on the internet, one who had recently suffered a humongous loss and I was trying to comfort. This is the type of loss that I hope none of you ever go through. I can't remember whether I fell in love with her during the comforting period of a while afterwards, but either way, I had fallen for her. She was, however, 4 years older than I was. For a long time, I had professed love for her, and at every turn, she told me I should find someone in real life. On occasion, she too replied to me with a profession of love, although whenever she did say it she was generally either drunk or "tipsy." While I was in love with her, she went away a few times, and I had gone to Finland for 3 weeks. During that time, I thought about her every waking hour, and most of the time while I was asleep too. When I came back, she was gone herself. I had to wait another 2 weeks, during which I thought only about her, and when she came back I was enormously relieved. My feelings had developed so strongly for her that if I didn't see her for over a day, I became worried sick over her. This trend continued for a year, during which the constant rejection was finally dulling my heart, despite my mind and soul's best attempts to stay faithful. During the month, I finally stopped the central viewpoint on her and considered other women. Of course, in reality I would never be able to talk to them, so my only option was the internet. Where I could not find anyone who was both unattached and interested. Oh well, by talking to them I am able to finish my school year and get through the summer. We're at the start of this school year now (a couple weeks have passed) and lo and behold! My heart decides to take a revolution. I now can't get the first girl out of my head. I think of her, I dream of her, and my soul still believes that I should stay faithful to the woman I had professed love to for the past year. I can still no longer get the original woman out of my head, I can ignore it for short periods of time by thinking of other things, and I can alleviate it by entertaining the thoughts a bit. My feelings and thoughts of her have been entirely sharing a life together in a more open sense.

Nice story, eh? Want to know why I took the nickname Darkest Poet? That was it. Because the feelings were too strong, I had to write poems to compensate.

"A Blank Slate"

I cannot see through this mist that covers my eyes,
Nor speak what lives within my mind,
And when I try my best to see I lose the thoughts within,
Yet when I think, everything is replaced.

Every passing moment that I spend in thought,
Becomes a blank slate covered by one image,
As I try to think of something else, my mind returns,
Continually and eternally to this one vision.

For once I think I can explain it yet still my words splinter,
And each time I think again my mind is stopped and stilled,
Opening my eyes and relaxing my mind, yet still this visage returns,
A blank slate, covered by your image.

Ahh the words of poetry, things many do but I have never really dabbled with till now. I wrote a poem about chloe and my relationship. Just something off a whim. I originally wrote it for her and now it is being shared to many. She convinced me to enter it into a poetry website. Within a couple of weeks I got mailings from the site saying I was one fo 50 poets nominated for poet of the year. If you are interested, here is what I did because of love.

http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P6935942&BN=999&PN=1

Mind you one stanza is missing and I may post that up later, but due to THIER limitations in space I couldn't add it.

Which one is your Cha? There are a ton there or are they all yours?!

for some reason it wont link right to it so u need to type in his name and i hope he doesnt get mad cause i gave it out....under last name put jewell and first daniel, the poem is titled missing a voice, its so sweet but its lacking without the last line, everyhting comes together at the end

http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P6935942&BN=999&PN=1

[BGE wrote:

Cha-Chi]Ahh the words of poetry, things many do but I have never really dabbled with till now. I wrote a poem about chloe and my relationship. Just something off a whim. I originally wrote it for her and now it is being shared to many. She convinced me to enter it into a poetry website. Within a couple of weeks I got mailings from the site saying I was one fo 50 poets nominated for poet of the year. If you are interested, here is what I did because of love.

http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P6935942&BN=999&PN=1

Mind you one stanza is missing and I may post that up later, but due to THIER limitations in space I couldn't add it.

Hey!! That's a good poem you wrote! A most excellent job you did! =D>

That's an awesome poem. I'd love to see what the missing lines are. I've come close to posting on Poetry.com, but just never did. Good for you!

B_B

PS> Lee is a good middle name....mine too.

Fire_eclipse wrote:

(I.E. College getting over and finding a job to support Mel and her little man Anthony) Give you an update later on this year.

Fire - you've just be given an A+ in my books! Not many guys are willing to take on the responsibility of a girl with a child from another relationship and take their thoughts into consideration too. Believe me - I tried it and failed miserably, feeling completely inadequate as I couldn't bear teh responsibility it comes with.

Remind me to buy the cigars and Miller when it's visiting time!

As for myself, I can honestly say that I've never found true love. I've had infatuations and affairs, both honest and sordid, but nothing close to the complete feeling. Those relationships have also been somewhat distressing, but they're the type of stories you can recollect to friends and laugh about.

First real girlfriend - together for a year. After what seemed like happy times, she visited NJ for a holiday and came back married to some guy out there as she wanted a Green Card. Game over.

Second girlfriend - caught her with a guy from my college. Game over.

Third girlfriend - She was a model and an actress. Incredibly beautiful, incredibly stupid. Game over.

Fourth - Punched me in the face for not wanting long term commitments after being with her for two weeks. Game over.

Fifth - Another model. She was fantastic, and there was actually substance between her ears. Sadly, her parents resented her 'evil rockstar' boyfriend and was promptly kicked in the face by her brothers as I wouldn't leave her alone. Game over.

Sixth (and last) - The obsessive girl who accuses you of cheating, even though you spend all your time either working or with her. Wanted me to stay at home all day and help bring up her child. Also tried to burn my UT2004 disc as she thought I was using it to get dates. Game over.

So yes, those are the major ones. I'm not classing the drunken moments and various silly 'groupies' as they're the embarrasing ones. Truth be told, I'm not one of those who's afraid of growing old alone. I'm not going to settle down with someone just for the sake of it as you're essentially damning yourself to a miserable old age. You need to find the person that completes you and show them each and every day exactly what they mean to you, and also expect the same in return. If someone doesn't want to show you any attention then they're really not worth bothering with.

GAME OVER MAN

cplmac wrote:

GAME OVER MAN

The poem with the last stanza:
Mind you this was written before Chloe came to visit.

Missing a Voice

To my dearest, Chloe April Hudson

Some may ask how to miss someone you have not
met, are you for sure, is it a sure bet? To
bet is to gamble, and I gamble nothing
away. They may not understand but they will
listen to what I say.
"This one is different, I've never met her
before. What is it you ask; no this is not
folk lore. But this is a tale of ones
strangest dreams. A tale fallen between the
crack of fate's seams.
Her voice was the start of my infatuation;
In it was a smile, with slight flirtation.
I tried to be cordule, thinking of nothing
more to be. With flirtation grew my
imagination and a feeling in me.
With time grew friendship, slowly feeling
eachother out. Speaking of fantasies and
secrets, some were quite stout. Finally we
knew that are feelings were true and decided
to give it a shot to see what we'd do."

*Missing Stanza*

Though we have not met, the date has been set
For our first roll of the dice in this 'bet.'
We miss eachother so much for we've already been so near;
And who knows what will happen by this time next year.

always makes me cry lol, but in the end i know he loves me

Well, here is a pic of the two of us (Boingo and I) at Lake Tahoe in California. Well, on a couch in Tahoe, at least. Cool place! We got to do a drive around the lake and did a little bit of hiking.

I love how he doesn't mention the fact that I lost the trail and couldn't find the waterfall we were looking for.

If any of you have never been to Lake Tahoe, I highly recommend it. The water is so pretty and the little town is so cool.
It was a blast!

B_B

PS> Isn't he a studmuffin?

Boingo_Babe wrote:

And to Pyro as she did introduce me to UT and DC. I never would have met him or any of you awesome people, for that matter, if it hadn't been for her....*whispers* and she gets mad if I don't acknowledge it. Hehehehe...

B_B

Hey!! I like to think im good for something!!! Plus it was left up to me to transform her into the nerd i always new she had inside her!!!

Anyways, Im SOOO glad that you guys are happy!! I love to see you both that way! Altho now i see less of you...dont make me barge in there with more dessert pizza!! I swear i have to brib you to see me now

teeheehee!! your a lucky man Cham!!